The truth and nothing but the truth.

In the interest of full disclosure, the real reason behind this blog is simply to give voice to my own truth. The daily, boring, frustrating, amazing, exhilarating truth of my life as a mama. I know that it is a wonderful gift of fate that I am able to stay at home with my babies, and I would not take any other course knowing what I know now. That said, this is about a gazillion times more difficult than I could have ever imagined! As much as I love my life and my family, I miss the old times: the old me, my old freedom, my old job, my old frivolities.

Did you happen to notice that qualifier in there? I made sure to tell you first that I love my family and my life. And of course I do, but I also find it interesting that I dare not tell you that I miss the Time Before Babies (T.B.B.) without making sure that you know I love them. Of course I love them! They sprang from loins! They grew inside of me, we were one unit for almost a year. And I wanted them, so very much. These were no accidents, these were well planned little lives. And I have no regrets, I very firmly stand by my choices...its just that sometimes I want to scream and run away. And I have a strong sense that some of you do too. Its the truth of doing a job so hard. So hard that we feel incredibly under qualified half the time; or at least I do. Maybe I'm overstepping here, maybe you don't feel that way, but I certainly do.

Logically, I know I am probably more prepared than most to be a mother. I have a background in elementary education and child psychology. I grew up around a lot of kids and have always felt comfortable with them and been liked by them. I read just about everything there is out there about parenting, development, etc. And still I feel inadequate roughly 42% of the time.

So I embark on the journey of this blog, hopefully to be updated daily, in attempt to get in better touch with myself and maybe even other moms who feel the same. Mostly I believe that if I write it down and put it out there then I will be able to own it, see it for what it really is and move on a happier and healthier version of myself.

So a toast to my journey and to you, my travel companions.

Cheers!