Parent Trap

I wish we could make a real life "Parent Trap." You know, like the movie. Except in this version I'd get to switch positions with one of the other mamas on this blog (except keep our own kiddos) and get to experience what it's like to be a stay-at-home-mom, while they experience what it's like to be a full-time working mom. I envy them so much. Yes I hear them complain about the neverending daily battles, etc., etc., but what they don't know is the pain and sadness that comes with leaving your baby day after day. Feeling like you aren't even really raising your child completely because the nanny is with them most of their waking hours. Feeling like you should have never bought a house because then you could have been a SAHM. Feeling like you work to pay for daycare. Feeling like you can never be completely great at anything anymore because you always pulled in ten million different directions. Yes, I have gotten much better about leaving Trouble so I can go to work. I think I blocked out the painful first three months when he was in daycare. Oh how I hate daycare. I am so thankful we have a nanny I trust and can afford. I thank God that he is able to run a muck in our own home and have the one-on-one attention he deserves. I am so thankful for that. And I am thankful that I have my job. It is the best job you can have if you do have to work (in my opinion anyway). In fact, it was my dream job. My dream position. My dream location. My dream. I always knew that's what I wanted to be when I grew up, but I also always knew that I wanted to be a mama. For some reason I never thought I would want to be a SAHM, even though I love kids more than anything. I used to think I'd get bored and fat because I would just eat all the time! But now that I am a mom, I would do anything to be a SAHM - at least until my kids were school age anyway. So, "Parent Trap" would be nice for a day - to put things into perspective. Maybe that way we'd all find a way to cherish the positions we are in.